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October 30th, 2007

An introduction of me, LJ Idol week 0 @ 07:58 pm

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So here's the entry promised from the Lj Idol's first "week 0" challenge. The only "requirement" is that we participants introduce ourselves. I've never done it in this journal, so after reading this entry, you should be clued into who I am and why I'm doing this crazy LJ Thing. Enjoy!


I’ve spent many an hour at a desk, computer at hand, screen staring blankly at me as it chides me to write and to write often. I’ve yielded to the spirit of the computer, sometimes aided by a cup of coffee or hot chocolate, sometimes cogitated by an incessant urge to tell those who read my writings, both present and future, about a particular issue or celebration in my life. The pages I immerse myself in do not construct a novel or even a fantastical story, but Ive always found some sollace in writing to the pages of a journal. This new concept of a Live Journal, a journal that everyone could read, was magical to me the first time I created it and started posting my life into the bitstream of the information superhighway.

I started writing my first journal on my first computer, an old but amazingly powerful, at the time, Apple Iic microcomputer. I would use AppleWorks, a highly powerful wordprocessor, with a spell checker. At age 9, I wrote entries every day to high capacity, streamlined, and amazingly thin floppy five- and-a-quarter inch disks. I even passworded my journal, just in case anyone might want to read my private thoughts and musings on elementary choir concerts, the weather, family vacations, and things I was doing with the computer at the time. I was too young to like girls atthis tender portion of my life, so had no juicy entries to protect with my unbreakable password, but I thought I was special, and that was all that was important to me. I once printed my journal out in braille, and though I wrote for one year, my writings spanned two volumes (about 400 pages). To this day, I’m not sure where that 5 and a quarter inch disk is, and I’m not sure where the hard copy is, but I do remember that my journal was on Side A of the disk. Side B had some worthless games programmed in BASIC that I hacked to give me extra in game money. I would give anything to find that relic from the past, not because it contains some cultural significance, but because it contains so much of what I was back then. It would also be neat to be able to play Lemonade Stand again .

And now, Fast Forward yourselves to today where Apple sells Ipods, Itunes, and The Macintosh. Today, where the IIC, revolutionary in it’s day, is a distant memory, a museum piece. Today, where few use or even remember the “floppy” disks and why it was called floppy. Heck, many don’t even have a floppy disk drive today. IN this day and age, I sit in front of my computer, and I’m always connected. I’m always reading news reports from Australia, where I studied abroad for a year and a half, or even listening to radio from there. I’m on Facebook, gmail, email, google, Ebay, and Amazon to name a few, words that didn’t even exist in 1988. If I were to tell myself that I was doing these things back when my first innocent journal started, my mouth would be agape and I would wonder about my sanity and and I’d wonder why I was using the Amazon River all the time for.

Which brings me to my current journal, so clumsily eluded to at the beginning of this writing. All I can say about it is that it’s prolific and wordy due to the fact that I type quickly and don't think about what I'm writing too deeply and because of this, it's more than somewhat disorganized. It's prolific not because I am a prolific writer, but because I am full of it. I know of few who have read it from cover to cover, and those who have, I lay awake at night worrying about their and my sanity. If you read my journal, you’d find missteps, miscues, and misunderstandings. If you read the whole thing, you’d find love and hate, agony and defeat, happiness and despair. You’d find that my initials NER stand for Noel Edward Romey, and not nerd without a D. You would however find, and probably can gleen from previous statements in this very entry, that if one added a d to my initials, one would describe me curiously well. You’d find a changing me; one at the beginning of my ramblings who jabbered incessantly about new computers, a new girlfriend, and a new school year at the University of Arkansas, coming home from Australia, coffee coffee coffee, and my ever desperate search for religion, to a religious self, one obsessed with finding acceptance within my profession, one who doesn’t drink coffee anymore, and one whose life may take a turn (in a good way) for the scary. How’s that for a run-on sentence? You’d find my journal structured as if I were writing countless letters home or to friends. You’d find that I use my journal to tell everyone what’s going on with me rather than writing a mass email.

If you read the comments in my journal, you’d find that I have great friends, and caring family. You’d find comments from people wishing me well after finding out in a previous phone post that I’d broken my femur, again. Unfortunately, you’d find comments from those, including my Grandma and Mom, admonishing me to keep writing. “We never know what’s going on with you anymore.”

Though many gaps exist in the stream of consciousness, the daily mundane events, and the struggles I’ve had in my life which are chronicled throughout these pages, in this writer’s humble opinion, it might be hard not to picture me sitting at my desk, writing. Writing for me, writing for you, my Live Journal friends, and most importantly, writing often so as to keep my story alive for my posterity. I want my kids to be able to struggle with me as I struggled through endless chemical engineering classes, laugh with me when I wrote the piece on Dr. Ner the blind brain surgeon, cry with me when my heart was broken, smile with me as I’ve gotten closer to graduating with my masters, and mourn with me at the loss of my Grandfather. I want them to be able to smell and taste the freshly fallen snow that I had to gingerly cross the few times it snowed andthere was no snow day. And most importantly, I want them, and you, to know that I write because I love to write. I write because it’s not something a chemical engineer should be able to do. I write to tell my story: one of determination, doing what’s right, and doing things which people told me just “couldn’t be done”.

And I write this today for all to read, not only for the Lj Idol contest, but because I’ve never really introduced myself in the over 400000 words of these pages.

It’s just two months shy of the five year anniversary of this new journal, but my aims are the same as they were when I started writing on my microcomputer some 19 years ago. I strive to tell a story, no matter how mundane, and I hope you, the reader, can handle the craziness that is me.

Remember, when reading my writings, “clickit or ticket” ‘cause it’ll probably be a bumpy yet thrilling ride.
 
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From:tralfamadore
Date:October 31st, 2007 01:00 am (UTC)
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This was absolutely wonderful. You managed to give me such a greater picture of you than I got from other entries that outlined such things as name, age, siblings, hobbies, etc. You also left me with thoughts and memories of my own, little wisps of what it is to be me and what it was to be me as a child. This entry had such a feeling of nostalga, I couldn't help but smile along with a past that seems to so very well show itself in the present.

This is all to say that I really look forward to reading much more from you throughout this competition.
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 02:43 am (UTC)
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Thanks so much for your comments. I was not sure where this was actually going to go, but as I do with pieces, I just wrote, and there it was. I hope I can continue to write well for the other parts of the competition. I've never done this before.
From:kindapoetry
Date:October 31st, 2007 02:10 am (UTC)
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Hey there!

I don't know if you remember me, but I friended you back, been awhile. I saw you submitted to LJ Idol. Good luck, and very nice first post.
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 02:44 am (UTC)
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Yes I remember you. I think you deleted me upon some of the times when I didn't write much. Thanks for adding me back, I'll do the same. Your entry was good too. All the best.
From:vitaoamore
Date:October 31st, 2007 02:21 am (UTC)
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Noel. You're crazy! BUT, in my defense I love in you a "you're awsome- completely platonic sort of way. lol. I am so glad that we are friends.
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 02:46 am (UTC)
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I'm totally glad we're friends too. It's been neat to be able to know someone else who has a Live Journal as well, and knows full well how to use it. Remember to keep writing and I'll try to remember to do the same. Maybe this competition will force me to keep on top of this journal writing thing.
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From:sunnyblue
Date:October 31st, 2007 06:18 am (UTC)
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clickit or ticket! you crack me up.
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 01:05 pm (UTC)
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It doesn't crack you up as much as when I spilled three pots of espresso on the floor does it? If not, I need to try harder next time.
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From:mme_furiosa
Date:October 31st, 2007 07:13 am (UTC)
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You're lovely. LJ is a revelation, isn't it? It has saved me from my geographical isolation by giving me a vital lifeline to the rest of my life, and tracing new paths along the way. I look rather forward to reading more, NER.
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 01:03 pm (UTC)
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Thanks, you'll get more. I thought at first that this idol thing was kind of stupid until I read some of the entries that people were submitting. Very impressive.
From:jldecker
Date:October 31st, 2007 01:26 pm (UTC)
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Hello, fellow therealljidol-er. ^-^

Looks like you and I have a similar writing style-- just let it ride, baby. I look forward to reading more of what you have to say in upcoming entries.

Cheers!

~ j
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 02:12 pm (UTC)
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Thanks for the comment, I'll be looking forward to reading your entry (I think I've read it already, but can't remember, there are so many). Thanks again.
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From:spydielives
Date:October 31st, 2007 03:40 pm (UTC)
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This was great!

Welcome to the competition.
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 04:02 pm (UTC)
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Glad you enjoyed it. Hope you had fun data mining me. Let me know what you can find out that could be useful in life :).
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From:superhappytime
Date:October 31st, 2007 05:54 pm (UTC)
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Man, I miss games played in Basic. I used to hack them, too. Did everyone do that? I would just change the colors.

And you didn't like girls at 9? I loved girls by age 9. I think I was unsure at 8. If there were a God, I'd still be unsure...that would sure make life a hell of a lot easier.

Good post.
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From:djner
Date:October 31st, 2007 08:48 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, I think everyone with lots of time on their hands hacked Basic. Very fun stuff.

Yeah, at times I wish we were unisexual, and then we could date ourselves and we'd not be rejected. Of course when you get into a relationship that brings even more wonderful things and challenges. I don't know when it was that I started liking girls, probably sixth or seventh grade, I have no idea.
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From:xo_kizzy_xo
Date:October 31st, 2007 09:20 pm (UTC)
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Hey fellow LJ Idol-er!

I had an Apple IIc too -- my first computer! It had a dot matrix printer and came with a game in BASIC called "Geography" where you listed a country, and the computer would play back listing a country starting with the last letter of the country you stated. It would always get me with "Yemen". Grr!

I think I actually have some leftover floppy disks somewhere too.

Great entry! I'm looking forward to reading more!
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From:djner
Date:November 1st, 2007 01:54 am (UTC)
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Gotta love that old computer. I was jealous of my friend who had an Apple IIGS. Those things were amazing. Glad you enjoyed my entry, I hope to read your soon.
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From:fidgety
Date:October 31st, 2007 09:53 pm (UTC)
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I remember BASIC. Or, more accurately, the antics that went on during BASIC class. If you told me I had to program something, I'd probably stab myself in the eye.

Anyway, this LJ Idol thing is kind of scary for an introvert such as myself. So many new people! But I hope you stick around. You seem fun.
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From:djner
Date:November 1st, 2007 01:49 am (UTC)
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I hope I can stick around, I'm kind of nervous myself because I'm really not a writer, and tehre's so many good writers out there. I have to program occasionally, and whenever I do this, I threten myself to poke myself in the eye (why would it make a difference I say), but I never do it, I just drudge through it and hope for some easy (yeah right) chemistry project or problem to do. Thanks for commenting, I hope we both survive the pirhana tank of this crazy thing they call LJ Idol (I hate the name but anyway).
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From:kittenboo
Date:November 1st, 2007 01:42 am (UTC)
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my new computer at work (well i just quit my job, but whatever) only has a cd drive, even though they made us back up our old computers with the 3 inch hard disks.

I haven't seen a floppy drive since college.
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From:djner
Date:November 1st, 2007 01:46 am (UTC)
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Yeah, apparently they even had larger floppy disks, I don't know. I've got a USB 3.5 inch drive that I use only when I want to record and play music from my piano, and some idiot in a class I took (the professor) had us all bring floppy disks for files or something. I thin he still does this. Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoyed it.
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From:wildcatwrites
Date:November 2nd, 2007 09:24 pm (UTC)
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Nice intro...I look forward to more!
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From:djner
Date:November 5th, 2007 02:44 pm (UTC)
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Thank for that, I'll definitely be continuing to write, as always. Hope you enjoy the next installments.
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From:goldmourn
Date:November 3rd, 2007 09:48 pm (UTC)
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For some reason for which I don't want to search my psyche for (though likely it's quite near the surface), I was in tears by the end of this entry. Probably not the reaction you were going for, but it got me.

oh, and I used to keep my entries on an atari xe or st or pc or whatever it was that my father let me have in my room way back long ago. I also used actual floppy disks, too. The blue screen of wordperfect... ah! I once had those old disks but I couldn't remember what my passwords, so sad.

Enough about me, let's talk about you. This entry was awesome and I anticipate reading more of you.
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From:djner
Date:November 5th, 2007 02:43 pm (UTC)
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You almost had me in tears with your comments, and that's a hard thing to do :). Thanks for the comment, and thanks for adding me to your friends list (I think I remember that you did that, if not I'm adding you). Haven't gone through all of the entres yet, I've been busy this weekend, but maybe I'll read your entry (if you have one) soon. Thanks again, and have a great da.
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From:marjory
Date:November 5th, 2007 09:14 am (UTC)
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Thank you for writing this!
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From:djner
Date:November 5th, 2007 02:40 pm (UTC)
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You're welcome. I enjoyed writing it, and hope I can do much of the same if not better in later entries.

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