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January 17th, 2008

Make it Yours - LJ Idol Week 10 @ 01:08 pm

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My mom's side of the family came to this country from Australia via England. Dad's family is a European fruit salad topped with Belgian, Swedish, and German nationalities among others. My geneaological pedigree isn't atypical; it comes from hard-working imigrants in search of a better life and the ultimate American dream. Some of my relatives were in search of new beginnings on the bottom of the ladder of employment; some, in the case of my Grandma on my Mom's side, came steaming over from Australia on the wide Pacific to pursue new beginnings with her new husband whom she had met during World War II.


I know their stories. I know them not from their writings in journals or diaries unfortunately--we do have lots of letters (love letters mostly to and from my Grandparents in the sunrise of their relationships)--, but I know them because both of my Grandmothers are still alive. For now, I can call them and ask them questions. For now, their stories are alive with them, but what will happen when they cross from this life into the next? Have I asked them enough questions? I doubt it. Will I be able to connect their stories together as well as I connect them in our living family tree? Maybe. The problem that I have is time. The problem I have is that time tends to eat away memories; it tends to eat away the history of the everyday person. The problem is that I probaby haven't asked all of the questions. And the problem is that nothing that I haven't asked isn't written down, and if it's not written down, with time, it could be lost forever.

Throughout recorded history, man has written: stories of conquest, defeat, exploration, exposition, and stories of every day life. It's the historian's job to sift through letters, journals, and other documents to describe what happened to a person or group. Through their writings, they describe how they lived, what they did, and how they did it. These people took time to write things down so that their story could be told later before being obscured by the mists of time.

That was then, and this is now. Then, people wrote physical letters, and waited weeks for a reply. Then, every day journal writing and the storytelling of one's life was more important. Now, we email. Now, we spend our free time sending electrons zipping to and fro, leaving little but a memory and screenburnt eyes. This is not to say that people do not communicate like they did in times of old, but the communication seems to be semipermanent and ever-changing. An historian can search old letters and journals, but what will the historian of tomorrow find? Emails tend to be deleted forever. Blogs tend to be deleted, leaving no trace of what was once there.

And that's where the importance, to me, of my LiveJournal comes in. I think that the vital importance of my LiveJournal resides in the traditional motives for keeping a journal. I'm able to write down the mundane facts of day-to-day life, which I will be able to share with my progeny via the printed page. I can also share my conquests--my achievements--as they happened. I hope that my family will be able to share my sadness as I went repeatedly into various hospitals,and my happiness as I graduated with my bachellors degree.

These things are vitally important to me and my future family, but LiveJournal offers us as "bloggers" other both exciting and challenging opportunities. There is real value to LiveJournal's community atmosphere. I can join communities with like-minded people, and through that, I can link to those like-minded people. Perhaps I'll find someone who writes about my interests. Perhaps I'll find someone who just has an interesting writing style. I can add people as friends so that whenever they write, I am instantly able to read their latest entry. My daily life can be discussed by my friends using comments. Through this, they have supported me during hard times and congratulated me in others. I can call a phone number and create an entry from literally anywhere, even from within an ambulance. To this day, listening to that post makes me tear up because it conveys so much more emotion than writing could afford me in a traditional journal.

LiveJournaling does create some problems however. I have been guilty in the past of worrying about what people who read my journal on a daily basis--my friends list--might think if I wrote about a certain event or topic. At times, I have stilted my language for fear that I would offend someone. I worried that if, for example, I wrote about my conversion to Mormonism, people would stop reading my journal, and that would invalidate the importance of what I was doing. This was a detriment to my journal because as a result of my petty worries, I have no day-to-day record of my thoughts and feelings during that important, and I believe sacred, time in my life. Writing to my friends helped me to sanitize that event out of my life's journal, and I fear that time has already erased some of those important memories, memories which could have been easily fillled by a few lines, every day. There are gaping holes in my journal now however, and those holes will never be fully filled by the memory of the day, but I fear that they could be crowded out by newer experiences and memories.

This is my journal. True, I write entries much like I'm writing a mass email. True, my Grandma has called me from Arizona to ask me why I haven't updated yet. True, I have met many interesting people in the land of LiveJournal. But the fact remains that this is my journal. When it is my time to cross the vail, I want future generations to know me. I wwant to be more than a name, birth, and death date to them. From this day forward, I resolve to make this journal mine. I resolve to do it for my future kids, and for their kids kids. I resolve to have the peace of mind to know that they will read these pages and know why I've spent so much time writing in this journal. And a final word to my future family, friends, and random historians with too much time on their hands ... if you keep a journal, write often, write always, and by all means, make it yours!
 
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From:kelly0182
Date:January 17th, 2008 07:34 pm (UTC)
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excellent entry!
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From:djner
Date:January 17th, 2008 07:50 pm (UTC)
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Thanks so much. I'm looking forward to reading your coming entry.
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From:chite
Date:January 17th, 2008 07:53 pm (UTC)
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Really wonderful entry.
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From:djner
Date:January 17th, 2008 08:00 pm (UTC)
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Thanks.

So are you saying that I should write whilst being in severe pain and on pain meds more oftenn? :)
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From:lilmissmagic71
Date:January 17th, 2008 09:41 pm (UTC)
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great entry... stuck a chord with me!
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From:djner
Date:January 17th, 2008 09:44 pm (UTC)
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Glad you liked it and that it had an effect on you. I was worried a bit about this topic. I just wanted to make mine stand out a bit because there's a possibility that you could get many entries on this topic that are the same. I haven't read any of them, but I appreciate your comment and I'm looking forward to reading your entry.
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From:puppetmaker40
Date:January 17th, 2008 09:50 pm (UTC)
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I often wonder what my daughter is going to think if she takes the time to read through the YEARS of journals I have kept both on paper and here on the Internet.

Nicely done.
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From:djner
Date:January 17th, 2008 10:16 pm (UTC)
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The beginning of my journal I'll probably have to censor for the kids that are young ... I've changed a whole lot since I started writing in this journal. But it's still really cool to go back and read. It's even more cool that I've used my journal for medical insurance purposes to prove dates of injury and such. I hope my family likes it. I hope they are able to get to know me well when I'm gone. It'll be hilarious for them to read all of my comments too because I'll be printing them out with the main body of this journal as well. Thanks for your comment.
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From:n_decisive
Date:January 17th, 2008 11:54 pm (UTC)
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KilljoyKilroy was here.

(Psst- tiny spelling error: you have 'petigree' where it should be 'pedigree.')
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From:djner
Date:January 18th, 2008 04:17 am (UTC)
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Fixed. Thanks for being the gramarian of the week. Last week, the honor went to spydielives. Thanks for our comment and for keeping me straight. How much do I owe you?
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From:baxaphobia
Date:January 17th, 2008 11:54 pm (UTC)
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Hey there! Obviously the pain meds didn't hinder your writing in the least! Great job as always! You really do write very well. And as for the green room, I just couldn't keep up. I figure if people are interested in what I have to say they'll friend me! Smile.
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From:djner
Date:January 18th, 2008 04:14 am (UTC)
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Thanks so much. I'm just glad it is done, and I won't have to write as much for a while. I just hope my arm is better when next topic rolls around. I agree with you on the green room; I read it, but sometimes don't participate just to participate. Looking forward to reading your entry.

Edited at 2008-01-18 04:15 am (UTC)
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From:lacombe
Date:January 18th, 2008 12:04 am (UTC)
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I had no idea that LJ meant something so deep and profound for you. Fantastic entry, my friend. I know you have many wonderful memories coming up in the near future!
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From:djner
Date:January 18th, 2008 04:13 am (UTC)
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If you were crazy enough to go back the 500 single sided pages (if you printed out my journal it would be that long), you'd probably find things you never could have guessed about me:). This is such a neat time in my life, I'm just glad I've resolved to write about it no matter what.
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From:imafarmgirl
Date:January 18th, 2008 02:35 am (UTC)
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Another great entry from you!
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From:djner
Date:January 18th, 2008 04:11 am (UTC)
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Another great comment from you. Thanks for your kind words. Looking forward to your entry.
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From:roina_arwen
Date:January 19th, 2008 04:55 pm (UTC)
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Very nicely written! Thanks for sharing!
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From:djner
Date:January 22nd, 2008 04:33 am (UTC)
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Thanks! :) Sorry it's taken me so long to respond, I usually do this more readily.

Signed,
A silver bulletless Ner
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 20th, 2011 08:33 am (UTC)
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it was very interesting to read. I want to quote your post in my blog. It can? And you et an account on Twitter?

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