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August 3rd, 2003

another entry @ 08:00 pm

I've been experiencing with styles and I still don't think I like the one I'm using, I need some visual opinions so hopefully I'll be able to get them in due time, its so (stock style) its not even funny. Thinking about using Component, but it can become very busy which isn't what I really want, so we'll see.

This morning woke me with a start at about 3:30 or thereabouts with a huge loud storm. It was also relaxing which is why I actually got back to sleep.

I had a very productive conversation with Jeff, web dude, and I think he is able to communicate much better on the phone and in voice that he is able to with text. I'm still helping them out though I don't know how much I will due to time and motivation. I'm full of ideas and how to do them so I've been able to tell Jeff and he's said that he'll do it or help me with coding.

My sister got home from Memphis and a camp she's been working for this summer. She has been doing this for two years and I am happy for her that she enjoyed it thoroughly. I still worry though because in the years in which I have been going to university we have grown more and more apart. She's become much more conservative and more religious (this camp was a religious one), and I have become more liberal and more questioning of religions and which one might be best for me. Its not the same as it were when I was youth group president, and I'm not saying that I don't belive, its just hard because I am not as intense as she is. I also have an issue with my questioning; I in other words, wish I was more sure of what I believe. It just means I'll have lots more thinking to do, lots more. I don't think I'm wrong or right, I think I'm just confused.

I'm sure I'll write lots more about that later when I'm more coherent and I can put my thoughts down on virtual paper without contradicting myself and generally not making a point or helping myself feel more at peace with myself.

Well, must go and call ayraud and try to help her put pictures in her lj. She was using Semagic to make an entry that she'd beencomposing for about two weeks and she's lost it :(, so I'm trying to help her through it fixing things. So more later.
 
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From:sunnyblue
Date:August 3rd, 2003 07:09 pm (UTC)
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Super religious and conservative people scare me. But, I think, at least they know what they believe while I am still pondering. I used to be way more religious than I am now. I got less religious when I was depressed, weirdly enough, because I didn't want to be around people and felt like peeps at church or youth activities did not understand me and my complexities. Thus I focused more on my school major and now my job and friends and am farthest away from any kind of religion that I have ever been. Sometimes that bothers me and sometimes it doesn't. Truthfully, I think little about it, but when I do, it irks me. I have been thinking of going to a different kind of church than the one I grew up in. Just to see. I don't know. I am still wandering. Still looking.
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From:djner
Date:August 3rd, 2003 07:20 pm (UTC)
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I don't think about it much, but when surrounded by it from my sister, I am forced to think about it, ponder it, analyze myself, and generally agonize about it. Its not a good thing. I don't think that makes me a bad person; I don't know, I just don't freaking know.
From:ayraud
Date:August 3rd, 2003 08:44 pm (UTC)
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This is my 2nd comment (I lost my first one when I stopped to show Julian my first entry). anyway, thanks for the help. I will send you a copy of our sermon this morning on Dr. Seuss' book, "Oh, The Places You'll Go". We've had sermons for most of the summer on different Dr. Seuss books. I've really found them to be thought provoking and also fun> Can church and religion be fun??
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From:sunnyblue
Date:August 3rd, 2003 09:13 pm (UTC)
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I think church used to be fun; I'm not sure when exactly it became un-fun, though it was un-fun long before I quit attending. I started getting too many questions in my head, wanting to know more than I was offered, not wanting to take things at face value, or because someone once said it was so. Somewhere, in all the thinking, I lost the fun and the interest I had in finding it again. What kind of sermon did you have based on Dr. Seuss? Sounds cool. What do you think, Noel?

Oh yeah, by the way, Hi Carol :)
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From:djner
Date:August 4th, 2003 07:30 am (UTC)
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sunnyblue carol, is Megan bwt. And yes, I don't know if its that I don't think that church and religion is "fun" I just got first confused and then discouraged because I was questioning so much. I am taught to question in my school training, taught to analyze. I suppose I need to throw it all away when thinking about this kind of thing, I don't know, not sure. Carol, send along that sermon, that should be quite cool, might put it on the computer and put alink to it if it is really cool :).
From:ayraud
Date:August 4th, 2003 12:48 pm (UTC)
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Hi Megan, great hearing from you. I've tried to e-mail the Dr. Seuss sermon to Noel. It will eventually get put on the church web site (which Noel helped me add a link to on my first entry. However, they only have sermons posted through July 6 at this time. I've always loved Dr. Seuss and may try to write a poem about my trip to Peru.
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From:sunnyblue
Date:August 4th, 2003 11:05 pm (UTC)
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Am very interested in reading this sermon. Also I enjoyed your first post about your mission trip.

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