September 22nd, 2003

Fiona and me in the snow

soup is good, unless its what the weather is

It was like walking through extremely cold soup this morning. The fog was low, and all those little drops invaded me. I must wear a sweeatshirt later today for the trip back into campus Chris's comment that he walks to class so its worse ioesn't apply because the movement at 15 miles per hour plus the fog really is a total pain in he ass. Especially when you have shorts and a short sleeved shirt on, oops.

Plans for today include working on this lab report, working on it again, and you guessed it, working on it again. I can't wait. Oh yeah, I get to go to class some time in there and also get to have my exciting meeting with the statics professor, I can't wait!!!

I finally got that entry posted from last week, damn good because it was so long ago in lj time, that I almost forgot the date of it.

So with that said, I've decided to boil some water for tea and am drinking it now. I was amazed that it was only 58 ddegrees outside; it sure seemed cooler. I'll write this afternoon about the statics guy and meeting that will happen. I think I'm ready for it but its sad that he's supposed to help me and I feel like its a full out exam. I've got to be positive about it, and I'm trying, but its not going to be greatly easy. Life isn't greatly easy though so I just have to try to smile. I suppose that's why there's 24 hours in a day right? Interesting that sometimes we try to cram so much into a day and wonder "why isn't there 25 hours in a day" and sometimes we just want to get it all over and wish the day neer happened. I don't know which case it is for me today.
Fiona and me in the snow

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I don't feel great at all tonight which isn't good considering I have to get as much of this lab report done as much as I can. Perhaps I'll find a way to work on it from the lounge in chemical engineering tomorrow where I can print it there hopefully.

I had my first meeting with Jong and I swera if it was Ground Hog day 'd be in the thick of it. Just press rewind, click back to last Wednesday, or think back to what I wrote, and you'll have today. I've explained, and explained and explained how best to teach me, and I'm still explaining. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm sinking, sinking ever further into the vat of unknowing. I have no ida how I'm going to do this, how I'm going to get through to him that I'm trying. Sgenlaiche was there for the whole two hour meeting, which was supposed to last for 30 minutes. I answered his questions to the best of my knowledge, but didn't do as well because I wasn't able to state the laws and principles completely correctly. After he askwed me questions, he started in on the "how am I going to teach you mantra". Me and Sgenlaiche think that he may be feeling as lost as I am. Here I am, taking his class as a blind person. He has no idea how to teach me, I have no idea how to tell him how to teach me. He's very willing to help meout but it infuriates him that he doesn't have all the answers anymore. What he's tried for 39 years isn't working now, and to top it all off he's pissed off that I'm not only in his class but he has to teach me. There has to be an answer and I won't let this stupid class stop me from getting my degree, it'd be so futile.

Whenever this happens, I stress myself totally out. I am such an achiever, that it frustrates me when I can't do something. So consequently I get migraines and I'm trying to fight the one I think I'm about to have off. I've taken an injection of Imatrex and hopefully that'll do the trick. Must stop thinking of this, its not helping me, arg. Sorry guys, I'll be more upbeat soon, this is yet another obstacle.
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