I've done lots of statics problems, and met with the statics guyDr. Jong. I wonder how I'll ever finish, but that'll come later, I think I need to be more positive today.
It was almost hot today with highs in the mid 80s. Luckily the humidity was down so the cotton long sleeve shirt I wore today did not stick to my body. I do have the air conditioning on now more because Fiona *really* wanted to play with her disgusting hamburger in the hall and make me chase after her, but it was a good release for the both of us, and she enjoyed growling menacingly at me for no apparent reason.
I got the code to make my phone talk, and I can see an easy review for main menu coming up. There are pros and there are cons, and most importantly it'll be easy and a cool demo. I can't get it to speak caller id info for some reason, but they swear it'll all be fixed in the next version of the software. I am not sure why I would have to pay 20 euros more than I am already paying for their mistakes but anyway. Now a statics status report for those interested. My mom was supposed to call the head of mechanical engineering, and the provost of the university to try to get them to understand the fact that something had got to change. I haven't talked to her yet but I assume words were exchanged and some kind of a realization came to head. Gotta love cool parents. So I went to statics practice today and there was someone there who is going to help me. His name is Arud or something, I can't quite remember it, its a long one. He's going to be there to help me out with anything I need explained, read or otherwise. I was happy about this, though the university's allotment of 20 hours of his time seems somewhat excessive.
That wasn't the problem. The problem really is just the fact that I really want to get done with this class. Dr. Jong keeps telling me to take my time, because he's going to give me as much time as I need but if I keep going as slow as I am, it'll take me years to finish. I'm not sure how to read him, not sure if I'm in the wrong here for actually wanting to move forward. He doesn't not want me me to move forward, but he expects me to learn and get a good grade at the same time. I'll probably never use this material again, which really is the difficult part. Its almost a paradox. He cares enough to spend as much time as I need, yet this class really is so unimportant to me. I guess it *is* important though as it's the last hurdle for me until I get my degree.
I'm sure I'll sit around some day when I have nothing to do or when I want to reminisce and laugh at myself and my ideas because when I read this again, I'll have my degree already, but its difficult. I've had so many mountains to climb, so many obstacles to go around, so many chasms to cross, that no wonder I want it over. I want to go to a job and enjoy it. He keeps talking about the fact that I should not take too many classes so I can be relaxed and so statics won't be a painful experience, but I'm really just wanting the class to be over and then the pain will subside. The rest of my classes are challenging, yes, but I am able to do well in them. I don't know, he's so inflexible, so rigid in his ideas, yet he cares so much about my success. I'm not sure what the solution is, but I better try my hardest not to get stressed about the whole thing. Its not worth it, it really isn't.
I've got to finish another lab report for tomorrow so me and Krystal are planning on meeting today to hash out how I can make this thing look presentable.
There's supposed to be a meeting for Alpha Chi Sigma but I plan not to go to it because I'd rather get things done.
I need a vacation, for real. December can't come soon enough. What fun, I'll have time to read books, time to be bored, time to be non stressed out. Maybe I should take like six hours next semester like Chris, maybe that'd be the ticket.
Always ending on a positive note, I had this observation to make this morning as I woke up to winamp. Have any of you used winamp to wake you up at pretty much the same time every morning? Well I do, and I put the thing on shuffle. For some reason, and because of the time of day I run it, the random number generator seems to pick the same music every morning no matter how hard I try. Suppose I should try waking up at 6:31 instead of 6:30 every morning and see if that improves things. It adds a new spin to ner's morning top 40 music. I never thought the same Celtic songs could get old but when you hear the same one from a stash of 1300 songs in a week three times, you know there's either something seriously wrong with your world or your reality is several degrees off kilter. So ends my thoughts, I shall return.